My motto for life is just to be comfy in your own skin. It’s not like we can use tracing paper to trace ourselves onto someone else. We’re all who we’re supposed to be. Be proud to be unique, and anything you do, do it for you.
I was about 100 to 1 as the one to lose weight. I was the underdog. The horse that’s kept on running and lost over half my body weight when no one ever thought I would. Even my closest friends were shocked I did it, they thought I’d be big forever. If I told you the money I’ve been offered to do weight-loss DVDs, your jaw would drop.
My only regret is trusting so many a**holes. I’ve trusted way too much. I’ve been in the public eye since I was 17 and so many people are your friend for the wrong reasons. But now I’m older I realise everyone had a purpose. Whether it be a lesson, or a trampoline, to get me to somewhere else.
I am the most loyal and the most trustworthy friend you could have. Everyone knows I’m the one to come to if you want to verbally vomit. People call me Lisa Fixer and it’s a great compliment. But sometimes I think, ‘Who’s fixing me?’
I remember someone saying to me, ‘One day your mum is going to be gone, and then who’s going to help you?’ because me and my mum were thick as thieves. We spoke all day every day and she advised me on everything. We were glued at the hip. I just thought, ‘Oh, don’t be ridiculous!’ But now I wish I’d listened. I’d give anything to tell her how my day was. I can’t show her all the nice clothes I wear now and that kills me every day.
The best present I’ve ever been given was from my partner, Al. He got together all my old home videos and put them on my computer for me at home, so I can hear my mum’s voice. Make the most of the time you have with people. Embrace everyone you love. You never know what will happen in life.
I always sense Mum around me. The other day after work I was feeling down and I walked into my dressing room and saw a white feather. Some people think it’s mumbo jumbo, but for me it was a crutch and a sign from my mum.
I have no fairweather friends and I don’t want any either. Kate and Samantha are my bestest of friends and have been since we were five. I’m their children’s godmother and we all holiday together, and when we are all back in Bury it’s like we never left. You can get lost sometimes in this industry, but when I see them it’s the real me. I don’t have showbiz friends. My friends are home to me.
I had even more energy as a child. Can you imagine? Al always says, ‘I wish I could just put you on pause sometimes!’ I was the ultimate Duracell Bunny, and that’s still who I am now.
My Secret Snapshot
This right here is the truth of what can happen to so many in life. My lovely mum was skeletal here. This was 12 July 2012. My birthday is on 13 July and she passed on 29 July.
She’d just said to me, “No matter how sh*t I feel, I’m coming to your birthday supper.” I’d said we’d just have it at home because she was so poorly with cancer , but she was absolutely adamant that because we went to the same restaurant year after year, that’s how it should be.
At this point she was living on nutritional shakes because that’s all she could consume, but was insistent she would have the meal she usually had – the garlic prawns. She ate the meal and it made her very sick, but she came regardless of being eaten alive by cancer because she knew it was the last birthday supper she would ever go to. That dress she has on I actually have at home, and it’s my go-to for when I want to feel close to her.
I nursed her the whole time. That final week I really took the reins, because my dad and brother were slightly in denial of how close to the end she was, and I wanted to be strong for everyone. I’d make her laugh by recreating her morphine and medicine drips on a Fat Rat from Ratatouille stuffed toy she had, so even that last week has happy memories. When she eventually fell asleep I was by her side.
I’ve never shared this picture publicly before, but this is why it means so much. I miss her every day, but as treacherous as things were while she was suffering, we laughed and were strong.
Lose Weight For Life by Lisa Riley is available from 12th July, Michael Joseph, £16.99
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