Vinnie Jones has moved out of the home he shared with his late wife as he’s haunted by the memories of the time they spent there together.
But the football hardman says he still speaks to Tanya’s spirit every day while making his bed at his new pad.
Vinnie is now living near his pals and a golf course in LA as both distract him from his ongoing grief at losing Tanya to cancer in July when she was aged 53.
He is also throwing himself into work to cope with his devastation by keeping himself occupied.
Vinnie said: “I have a film production company and we have a £100million investment fund.
“And I’ve got my wooden flooring company, Deacon Jones, which is doing great, so I’m keeping busy.
“I have to go with the flow and accept it will take time to come to terms with my grief.
“There’s no point in fighting it. Tan was an incredible, remarkable woman and I will never get over losing her.
"But I have lots of happy memories – she left me with a lifetime’s worth.
“I don’t need to carry a memento because she is always here, in my heart.”
Vinnie said he also finds comfort in talking to his wife Tanya every day about what he is doing. He explained: “Every morning, I get up, make my bed and have a little chat with Tan about what I’m doing and how much I miss her.
“Even now it’s one day at a time.”
But Vinnie couldn’t bear to stay in his marital home after Tanya’s death, adding: “I moved nearer my golf club friends at Toluca Lake.”
On taking therapy and talking to his pals about his feelings, he said: “I see mental health as the hub of a wheel, with lots of spokes. Each spoke represents a different type of issue and mine just happens to be grief. I’m coping with the help of my friends.
“I went away with the boys for a quiet break in Canada this summer. We did a bit of fishing and talked.
“Some of them have been through a lot with alcoholism, something I have struggled with, and they gave me good advice. It was a nice environment to be in.”
Vinnie said as a result of Tanya’s death he had become even closer to his children Kaley, 33, and Aaron, 29, who is training to be a pilot in Ireland.
Tanya was diagnosed with melanoma in 2013 and died in July after a brave six-year battle with three types of cancer.
She and Vinnie were both treated for melanoma, but while he got the all-clear, the disease spread through Tanya’s body.
Vinnie said he was glad his daughter Kaley, who lives in the UK, has her own home as it was one of Tanya’s final wishes.
He added: “Kaley is having counselling as well and doing up her house with her partner – it was one of Tanya’s wishes that she had her own home.
“I’m not brilliant with a screwdriver, though – I’m better as a foreman.”
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