Queen documentary: Watch Freddie talk about dying as Brian May reveals his AWFUL grief

“With Freddie’s death we thought it was all over,” says Taylor. “We hadn’t planned on ever playing again.” The band didn’t just lose their beloved friend, they lost the man who was the symbol and spirit of Queen, itself. The powerful new documentary film, The Show Must Go On: The Queen + Adam Lambert Story, shows how they coped with losing Freddie and the long road back to glory for the band. It also includes incredible archive footage of Freddie talking about his life – and death. 

During a solo interview in Germany, Freddie said: “I don’t really think ‘When I’m dead, are they going to remember me?’ It’s up to them. When I’m dead, who cares? I don’t.”

As usual, he hid his true feelings behind jokes and flippant comments. For such an apparently extrovert person he was unable to face just how important he was to everyone, not just the band. In fact, May has spoken about how deeply shy and introvert Freddie really was off stage and off camera.

Asked if he thought he would go to Heaven, Freddie couldn’t resist: “No, I don’t want to. Hell is much better. Look at the interesting people you are going to meet down there.”

Of course, when his death actually came, there was no longer time for jokes as his bandmates reeled from their loss.

Brian May said: “I missed Freddie dreadfully. I knew it was coming but it was still awful.

“We talked about it, (we said) if anyone goes we should just stop – and we did stop for a very long time. We didn’t have a desire to go on without Freddie. It was a grieving process, like we don’t want to talk about Queen, we don’t want to be Queen, we’ve done that. We want to be ourselves now.”

A beautiful video of Brian May singing Love of My Life shows the crowd singing along and then Freddie appears of the big screen to complete the song.

Freddie had revealed the band talked about what would happen if someone left, long before his AIDS diagnosis and eventual death: “Through everything, we will just carry on. It’s a survival instinct the whole group has. I mean if I just left they would replace me… Not easy to replace me, huh?”

In the end, it took twenty years. Freddie passed away in 1991 and the band took a hiatus before embarking on a project with Paul Rogers, who fronted the band on tours from 2004-2009.

Although a great singer, Rogers was most comfortable performing blues and rock, which is why the partnership dissolved according to Taylor on the new documentary.

It wasn’t until Taylor and then May saw a video of Adam Lambert competing on America Idol that the hope began to grow that someone might finally be able to step into Freddie’s shoes. The documentary follows that path to the rebirth of Queen in 2011, when they performed together on stage in Kiev for the first time, all the way to their upcoming stadium tour.

The Show Must Go On: The Queen + Adam Lambert Story aired on ABC in the US, UK date TBC

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